As the last week of my studies at Johnson University came to an end, I could feel the anxiety for what the future holds come over me. I’ve chosen a career path, know the next steps and understand what needs to be done, yet I’m still feeling so insecure. I’ve always believed that the hardest part of “adulthood” would be choosing a path and knowing what steps lie ahead–yet here I am perplexed at my insecurities. I have sought out scripture searching for that sense of peace, hoping to find some sort of antidote all while being bombarded with thoughts of “am I capable of handling the storms to come?” or “how am I supposed to do this?”
The problem with my doubts is that they all revolved around myself and my own capabilities. I saw myself as the primary factor affecting my future. I was searching for security within myself and not with my Creator.
The problem with my doubts is that they all revolved around myself and my own capabilities.
It wasn’t until reading Proverbs 3:5-6 9 (“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths”) that I was reminded that security can never be found within one’s self, but rather through God and the strength He provides his sons. With this firmly in my heart and mind, the lens through which I saw my future began to change. The future no longer appeared as an immovable mountain but rather a gate to what my creator has prepared for me. I gave up control, letting the unknown become nothing but an afterthought; my dependence is now upon God, I remember that I lack nothing for he has provided me with all I may need (2 Peter 1:3). Security is a fool’s errand when trying to achieve it through your own devices. However, God transcends our fears and shatters the shackles holding us from what he has called us to.
Daniel Irwin is a 2019 Johnson University graduate preparing to be a missionary in Spain with Team Expansion.